Guiding her into dream time Following lights in her eyes This living behind´s got her frightened So I´m here and I´m working all night
How is she not breaking down? Oh God I feel her shaking Try as I might to provide her light In the end it´s she who´s breaking
I´m holding the choice as she grows life from it´s stem Is it better to say not now when I´m trying learn: yes? I´m dreaming of bouncing feet and your motherly smile But when you´re sleeping so far away I can´t feel what´s inside
How am I still holding on? Oh God I hope I am holding She´ll try and describe what my strength provides but I fear my strength is failing
If I could change my mind I would change
What´s the change for the better For a child who learns not to cry? And to the boy who relies on his anger: You´ll survive but you won´t feel exchange And why all these doubts? And what are all these doubts? I see in her eyes that I´m holding her fine but all I´m hearing is doubts
Even as water´s crushing over my head And the rhythm that I would slow is picking up it´s pace I´m learning from older shames as I´m watching them die
And I´m still hoping to see her smile in the morning when we wake
Now that I am waking up Oh God I hope I am waking Though I´m overwhelmed at times I find that I´m less afraid of change
Change all the time
I´m still finding what´s sure And not getting lost in my mind I know I can try
Needing my own But still Getting lost in her eyes And hoping it´s time