I´m learning to like myself for the first time Tryna rewrite all the stories that I´ve told Everyone thought I had it all together, now my fair-weather friends are gone with the cold
And I hadn´t addressed the shame, I confess, it was eating me alive If you bury something so deep underneath all the laughter and the lies Guess nobody will believe you when you finally ask for help I´ve been crying wolf every day for a while now (Mm-mm) I´ve been telling you I´m okay for a while now
I´m outrunning the past, but it all has to catch up with the times If I was faster, then I could pass the finish line (Ah-ahh, ah-ahh) And if none of this lasts, then I can´t grasp the reasons that we try Will it matter when we all turn to ash?
Will any of this matter? Will any of us matter in the end?
So, I left California ´cause California was a lot It was heatstrokes and suntans and pretending I am someone I am not If I went back, I´d buy a house on a vineyard and sell all of my grapes And no one would know that I used to be someone so great (Mm-mm) Oh, no one would know that I used to be someone
I´m outrunning the past, but it all has to catch up with the times If I was faster, then I could pass the finish line (Ah-ahh, ah-ahh) And if none of this lasts, then I can´t grasp the reasons that we try
Will it matter when we all turn to ash? Will any of this matter? Will any of us matter in the end?
(Mm-mm) Will the rumors and the actors And the music really matter in the end?