I could probably never admit this to anyone else but you But back in like 2001 I wanted to kill you
I turnt up when i heard the crash But in the next few frames that followed I turnt all the way down like slow motion Like time and space got swallowed And I believe every moment is meaningful, even if just for a second And every second counts when you watch the clock from inside of the wreckage Two in the mornin´, I was outside your buildin´ in the back of a taxi And over on the corner next to the record store, we saw an accident happen Of course it stole my focus Cold as the wind, I´m frozen, motionless I don´t remember if I showed emotion Just autotune and sing those notes Was almost twenty years ago, long time ago Sometimes I try to block it out my mind, but then decide to show
Those glimpses of violence on the insides of my eyelids I still hear it in my head, I can see it, still can´t describe it See the cab driver fumble with his flip phone, tryin´ to hit 911 You know the cops are gonna come Like what the fuck? The one time I´ve ever carried a gun This ain´t even my gun, what the hell did you put in this flask? Who the fuck do you think that you are with your scary ass? Wishin´ that you could bury it in the trash Smash that four-door Ford sedan into an F-150 Bright red blood in the fresh white snow and my breath got sticky I was on the verge of cryin´, but this ain´t my time to work it out, no
I´m tryin´ to find a way to help out, but I´m nervous that I don´t know how to And i´m sure I heard a voice come from the inside of the car So I´m pullin´ on the handle tryin´ to pry the door ajar Lookin´ through the window, I don´t see anybody movin´ The noise I heard was the radio, there´s nothing there but music And it was no surprise when I recognized y´all drew a crowd ´round And everybody so quiet, it felt like the song was stupid loud now Kick, bass, and snare, I swear that to this day, when I close my eyes I thank whomever can hear these tears, ´cause that´s the night that one of us was supposed to die