I could feel my heart sink
I had been pushed to the brink

Losing this conflict was all I could handle
I thought my world was ending

But it was only expanding
It wasn´t the emotion I thought I´d expect
“This won´t happen” was engrained in my head

My absence was always my escape
I wasn´t in the best place
You´re owed memories I can´t restore
Not stories of wayfare and folklore
My undivided attention was served in seconds
For you I had to mend them
The best parts of me were beckoning

I swallowed my fears
I´m so grateful you´re here
The last two years
Would have been unbearable without you there

I thought I bided my time too long

It turns out the timing was perfect
In the end the weight was all worth it
The brightness guided me through the fog
A constant beam of light that set my course right

I had taken on too much
It took over me
Longing for what I had when I was young
I had taken on too much
My responsibilities are choking me

Setting boundaries for myself
I´m the one who keeps walking all over them
Creating limits for abuse
I´m the one leaving myself battered and bruised
Where is my incentive
To find my healing?

I let misery be my motivator
I could sense myself slip into this crater
I´ll only be one thing forever
I´ll slide the scales back to the center
The agony and anguish were just all part of the endeavor