I don´t wanna do drugs anymore
If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall
Your skin would crawl
I´m high

But I am not a sycophant for a good time
I only wanted to escape my mind
For one night, know what happiness feels like
But the nightmare I´m ignoring is darker in the morning

It´s a band-aid on a broken arm
It´s a siren sounding out alarm
A fucked-up version of self-harm
And it´s louder than a cry for help
When I destroy my mental health
Because I don´t respect myself

Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry

I don´t wanna go to bed alone
So I let another stranger take me home
I drink to numb the pain
And you would do it too if you would share my brain
Everybody that I love gets hurt
And I´m learning to believe that I just deserve
The demons I´m ignoring
And the regret in the morning

It´s a fucking domino effect
A prison cell inside my head
A trauma that I can´t forget
And it´s louder than a cry for help
When I destroy my mental health
Because I fucking hate myself

Every time I take these drugs to pick me up

All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever

Damned if I do and bored if I don´t
And I should get clean again but I won´t
I told you that I don´t need help
Because I lie to myself
I´m damned if I do and bored if I don´t
And I should get clean again but I won´t

I wanna be someone else
Because I´m scared of myself
Sometimes I´m scared of myself

Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is cry
Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
All I ever do is
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever
Cry, cry
I only ever cry