[EVAN]
I never meant to make it such a mess
I never thought that it would go this far
So I just stand here sorry
Searching for something to say

Something to say
Words fail, words fail
There´s nothing I can say

I guess I thought I could be part of this
I never had this kind of thing before
I never had that perfect girl
Who somehow could see the good part of me

I never had the dad who stuck it out
No corny jokes or baseball gloves
No mom who just was there
´Cause mom was all that she had to be

That´s not a worthy explanation
I know there is none
Nothing can make sense of all these things I´ve done

Words fail, words fail
There´s nothing I can say
Except sometimes, you see everything you wanted
And sometimes, you see everything you wish you had
And it´s right there, right there, right there
In front of you
And you want to believe it´s true
So you make it true
And you think maybe everybody wants it
And needs it a little bit too
This was just a sad invention
It wasn´t real, I know
But we were happy
I guess I couldn´t let that go
I guess I couldn´t give that up
I guess I wanted to believe

´Cause if I just believe
Then I don´t have to see what´s really there

No, I´d rather pretend I´m something better than
These broken parts
Pretend I´m something other than
This mess that I am
´Cause then I don´t have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see

´Cause I´ve learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
I never let them see the worst of me

´Cause what if everyone saw?

What if everyone knew?
Would they like what they saw?
Or would they hate it too?
Will I just keep on running away from what´s true?
All I ever do is run
So how do I step in
Step into the sun?
Step into the sun