God, I have been doing the same thing in the same place, working the same job for 45 years. You know that. Shit just flew by. What am I really even doing? God, I know we rarely talk, but every day I wake up I feel like, I feel like I blew it with my family, with her. These kids around me don´t have no one to look up to. Should have been me. This job ain´t me, man. This ain´t what I´m supposed to be doing in my life, man