You have to wait for the drums to come in

I smoked my first cigarette, my cowboy killer

With a few close friends, so cold my hands went numb
One girl, she talked about her boyfriend like a god
He had a dirty mouth, and we all ate it up
And there´s someone new I been seein´
That shows me what I´ve been missin´
I never had that high school love
But this tastes like sophomore year to me
Got me learnin´ all the words to his favorite songs

But I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark
I aim for the pain and say, "This is just for fun"
Oh-oh, I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark

But what if I surrendered to the sun?

The woods back in my hometown
And Friday night Blockbuster countdowns
How I´d choose the long way home to pass the beach
Wish you´d ask that kind of question
The kind that digs for somethin´ hidden
But I´m not sure you´d like to know that side of me
Then you text me from a nightclub
You´re out tonight like I was
Did you find a new plus one?
Young Achilles, you got options
Maybe I should just fuck off
And let go (Go, go, go, go) of the wheel for once

But I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark
I avoid the pain and say, "This is just for fun"
Oh-oh, I´ve got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark
But what if I surrendered to the sun?

Uh-uh, yeah-yeah, we got matchin´ scars
The kind that you pick and scratch, and they stay there for life
You were in my arms
I´m left with this lonely heart and movies in my mind
Everything you said is messin´ with my head, I´m goin´ crazy
I don´t understand, but I can´t just pretend you don´t sedate me

Maybe I feel like I don´t deserve your love
But you could save me from this self-sabotage
I´m havin´ panic attacks now, I need alprazolam
I´m havin´ withdrawals, I don´t know who I am
I was never the same after I got sober from you, yeah
Now it´s over for you, and it´s over for me
Why do these words hurt so deeply?
You were my favorite sunburn, I would like to save for another day

But, I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark
I avoid the pain and say, "This is just for fun"
Oh-oh, I got gothic babe tendencies, I always choose the dark
But what if I surrendered to the sun?

And I didn´t run, run, run, run, run
I didn´t run, run, run, run, run
And I didn´t run, run, run, run, run (Run)
I didn´t run, run, run, run, run