Got a hole in my heart that I tried to fill
With the money and the girls and the molly pill
I called my mom up yesterday
Nothing´s really wrong, but I´m not okay

And it rushes in, the memories, the sad thoughts, and everything
I look around and suddenly I almost fade away

Singing cross my heart, I don´t hope to die
2018, almost lost my mind
Tell my mother that I´ll be fine
Doing my best to stay alive, alive, alive, alive

Yeah, yeah
I put a smile on, but I´m not okay
People start to worry when I sleep for days
I´m dressed to kill ,but I´m dying inside
When I was a little boy, I dreamed of this life

Now I´m all grown up, got kids of my own
Try to show them love that I did not know
My father was an addict and so am I
Doing everything just to stay alive

It rushes in, the medicine, the chemicals, and imbalances
I look around and suddenly I threw them all away

Singing cross my heart, I don´t hope to die
2018, almost lost my life
Tell my brother that I´ll be fine
Doing my best to stay alive, alive, alive
Doing my best to stay alive, alive, alive
Doing my best to stay alive
Doing my best to stay alive

Cross my heart
Tell my mother
Almost lost my life
Doing my best to stay alive