Opening blinds, but I canĀ“t find my way around I owe it to myself, I got a lot to figure out Got a knot in my belly, are you sure itĀ“s Supposed to help me? ItĀ“s been long enough to feel it, can you feel it?
ArenĀ“t I supposed to feel it now? Tell me what youĀ“re thinking I donĀ“t wanna have to shout Feel the heavy breathing, on my chest And in my mouth Got two hands around my heart I donĀ“t wanna see myself Burning bridges when IĀ“m down IĀ“m falling, wondering how to spend my Million hours while youĀ“re calling Throwback to my bedroom with No colors my apartment got no AC In my room, shoutout Vernon Earl Monroe You know what heĀ“s gonna do ArenĀ“t I supposed to feel it now? Tell me what youĀ“re thinking I donĀ“t wanna have to shout Feel the heavy breathing, on my chest
And in my mouth Got two hands around my heart I donĀ“t wanna see myself Burning bridges when IĀ“m down IĀ“m falling through the corridors Used to the broken flooring Sorry IĀ“m not sorry for, I excuse myself And foreign words that I might trust my mess I look at it inside, a story puts me at my best line Lose me at my best, my next project Might be the one that shoots me (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)
And the stars in the sky light my bedroom Flashing words on the walls and my head too IĀ“m alive but I canĀ“t live without you CanĀ“t live without you
And the thoughts in my head run in circles And the sheets on my bed turn out purple IĀ“m alone but I know that I wonĀ“t do Nothing to hold you back (back)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh) (Oh, oh, oh, oh) Nothing to hold you back (back) (Oh, oh, oh, oh) (Oh, oh, oh, oh) Nothing to hold you back (back)
(I-I-I-I) I just wanna go to sleep, but I donĀ“t know how to keep Separated from my thoughts, itĀ“s Become a part of me If IĀ“m alive at 24, my life is a dichotomy
I donĀ“t know what I wanna be, nobody better bother me IĀ“m sleep deprived and suicidal Thinking ābout a lot of things I know itĀ“s in my mind but Sometimes itĀ“s just kinda hard to see Nobody really gives a fuck until they feel on top of me I realize I donĀ“t wanna be