I´m staring out into that vacuum again
From the back porch of my mind
The only thing that´s alive
I´m all there is
And I start attacking my vodka stab the ice with my straw

My eyes have turned red as stop lights
You seem ready to walk, you know I will call you eventually
When I wanna talk till then you´re invisible
´Cause there´s this switch that gets hit
And it all stops making sense
And in the middle of drinks
Maybe the fifth or the sixth
I´m completely alone
At a table of friends
I feel nothing for them
I feel nothing, nothing
Well I need a break from the city again
I think I´ll ship myself back west
I got a friend there she says
"Hey anytime!"
Unless that offers expired, I have been less than frequent

She´s under no obligation to indulge every whim
And I´m so ungrateful, I take she gives and forgives
And I keep forgetting it
And each morning she wakes
With a dream to describe
Something lovely that bloomed
In her beautiful mind
I say I´ll trade you one
For two nightmares of mine
I have somewhere I die
I have somewhere we all die
I´m thinking of quitting drinking again
I know I´ve said that a couple times
And I´m always changing my mind
Well I guess I am
But there´s this burn in my stomach and there´s this pain in my side

And when I kneel at the toilet and the morning´s clean light
Pours in through the window, sometimes I pray I don´t die
I´m a goddamn hypocrite
But then night rolls around
And it all starts making sense
There is no right way or wrong
Well you just have to live
And so I do what I do and at least I exist
What could mean more than this?
What would mean more?
Mean more?
Oh oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh oh, oh oh