I wish I could reconcile
´Cause deep inside I´m dyin´
So I put on a smile
And I pretend I´m fine
I´m just another screwup

Baby, don´t waste your time
I told you it´d be different
But we knew I was lyin´, yeah
We knew I was lyin´
Oh-oh, we knew I was lyin´
I´m just another screwup
Baby, don´t waste your time
I told you it´d be different
But we knew I was lyin´, yeah
We knew I was lyin´

I´m from a small place but got big dreams
Idolizin´ people on the big screen
Left home when I was like fifteen
I ain´t never think my mom would get clean
Yeah, the shit seem way better
When you on the outside lookin´ in, don´t it?
More money bring more problems

Can´t trust family, your friends foldin´
That´s real, devil been testin´ me
Still pursuin´ my destiny
And I still pray multiple times of the day
But I am so far from heavenly
I got so much hate in my heart
The thoughts in my brain are too dark
Some of these dudes who claimin´ they with you
Are really against you and you are they mark
Let me tell you, loyalty is rare
Ain´t nobody tell you life was gon´ be fair
Can´t depend on one person but one person
That´s the person you see in the mirror
But tell ´em beware, because you are your own worst enemy
Somethin´ an old G said to me
I took the wrong roads so long
I just hope that you know that I´m ???

I wish I could reconcile
´Cause deep inside I´m dyin´
So I put on a smile
And I pretend I´m fine
I´m just another screwup
Baby, don´t waste your time
I told you it´d be different
But we knew I was lyin´, yeah
We knew I was lyin´
Oh-oh, we knew I was lyin´
I´m just another screwup
Baby, don´t waste your time
I told you it´d be different
But we knew I was lyin´, yeah
We knew I was lyin´

??? of what life is

I don´t wanna be the bad guy, I´m just like this, yeah
Family reunions, was never invited
Believe me, when no one believed in me, I did
We been misguided, environment filthy
Tryna get up out of this life before it kill me
Layin low, over three weeks sober
That´s an accomplishment, but hell, y´all don´t feel me
I used to tell anyone that would listen that
I´me be rich and, yeah, I´ma be famous
Lot of setbacks in my past, can´t change ´em
Playin´ with somebody´s heart, that´s dangerous
People tell me I´m chosen
How the hell when I´m broken?
My heart is so frozen
Never know what tomorrow is holdin´
I know that I´m lonely

I can only count on me
My trust has been stolen
Leave it, no matter which way that I´m goin´
Put on this smile but live with regrets
Put on this shine, no one to impress
All this time I pretend that I´m fine
I´m manic depressed (Manic depressed)

Bartender, won´t you pour me another one
It´s the middle of the night and it´s rainin´ outside
I thought that last one woulda made me forget
That I done so much wrong in my life, I could never make it alright

I wish I could reconcile
´Cause deep inside I´m dyin´
So I put on a smile

And I pretend I´m fine
I´m just another screwup
Baby, don´t waste your time
I told you it´d be different
But we knew I was lyin´, yeah
We knew I was lyin´
Oh-oh, we knew I was lyin´
I´m just another screwup
Baby, don´t waste your time
I told you it´d be different
But we knew I was lyin´, yeah
We knew I was lyin´