I´m a mess
It´s a shade
Just a curse
All alone
I can´t escape this flow

Can´t escape it on my own

(Do you)
Feel the stress
Hear the stirring
A rage pushed low
I tried not to let it show
I tried to let it go

I, I lie to my last breath that I´m not gone (not gone)
I tried being honest once and lost count of all it´s cost

I keep waking up as somebody new
The absence of me is the proof
Will I be defined by loss?
Or just lost like everyone

I´m not sure you can hear me but, I´m ready
Let´s go

I´m losing count of all the friends I´ve lost through energy
If I´m not running empty they don´t want a thing from me
I´ll send a message out so you can have it clearly set
Half a man without a soul
That´s all you´ll fucking get
I want to write it down
I want to set in stone
A new start to force the balance
So I can feed my soul
3 decades on
I´m still running

They can never say that I´m not trying
Another void in the shade and it feel like drowning
I swear on lives and a god I have no belief in
I am nothing
Is that what you wanted from me?
And 3 decades on
I´m still running
They can never say that I´m not trying

I, I lie to my last breath that I´m not gone (not gone)
I tried being honest once and lost count of all it´s cost

I keep waking up as somebody new
The absence of me is the proof
Will I be defined by loss?

Or just lost like everyone

I´m sick of seeing ghosts in the broken frames at home
Couldn´t we have run together
Because the journey´s too much alone
I´ve contemplated joining you sometimes when I get low
So am I destined to face failure
Never to find an afterglow
Oh no

What the fuck have I become
No
What the fuck have I become
I told you I need you
You threw me to the wolves
I promise it´s over

I´ll find my own way through
I, I lie to my last breath that I´m not gone
I tried being honest once
And lost count of all it cost

And if that darkness catches up will I become
Someone no longer defined by loss
Just lost like everyone

Brace yourself I´m about to fall off
Brace yourself I´m about to go off