Since I left I needed medicine
Just can´t shake it off
Waking up I´m on the fence again
Don´t know what I lost
So I´m not in any photographs

Took that like a punch
Talking to myself right off the ledge
Guess that´s what I want

Could say I messed up
Could say I dodged a bullet
A different lifestyle, I don´t know what to call it
I don´t know what to call it

I hate it when I´m here
I love it when I´m leaving
I miss you when you´re gone
I´m floating in between
Will I ever put my feet on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now?
I hate it when I´m here
I love it when I´m leaving

The more I feel alone
The more I miss the deep end
Will I ever drop my bags on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now? (Now)

Fighting through my tongue like fingernails
I know I should stop
Sorry that I had to bail again
That´s not what I want
On a plane these thoughts are turning
Always on then off
Somewhere in between I´m torn again
No one knows I´m gone

Could say I messed up
Could say I dodged a bullet
A different lifestyle, I don´t know what to call it

I don´t know what to call it

I hate it when I´m here
I love it when I´m leaving
I miss you when you´re gone
I´m floating in between
Will I ever put my feet on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now?
I hate it when I´m here
I love it when I´m leaving
The more I feel alone
The more I miss the deep end
Will I ever drop my bags on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now? (Now)