[Joyner Lucas] Uh What if I told you that I was different? What if I told you that something´s missin´? And what if I told you we´re not alike
And the way that I feel inside is different than what you picture What if I told you I feel divided? Keep to myself and I´m awfully quiet And what if I told you I been conflicted by my own thoughts Trapped in the dark, and I tried to hide it No, I´m not a slave to no fuckin´ fairy tale I bet you think that you know me very well Make no mistake, this is not a cry for help ´Cause I don´t owe no one no explanation on how I feel
[ Joyner Lucas] But on the real, what if I told you that I was brave? I grew up different than I was raised But still, what if I told you I´m out of place? Wait
[Joyner Lucas] Yeah What if I told you I´m not alright? I mean, I don´t feel dead, but I´m not alive And what if I told you, "I´m not like you" And the shit I´ve been goin´ through, it´ll prolly make you cry
And what if I told you, "I´m not this" And the person you think you know don´t exist Look, I´m not who you know, I´m not who you wish I´m not who you want me to be, what you want from me isn´t this I grew up in church where I couldn´t be myself I felt like a prisoner, couldn´t leave my cell They told me, "God don´t like ugly," and this an ugly world And if I ever seen things different, then I would burn in hell
[ Joyner Lucas] And on the real, this is not new, this is not a phase I grew up different than I was raised But still, what if I told you I´m out of place? Wait
[Eminem] What if I told you I´m homophobic? And you have zero control over your impulses And the genetic flaw in your chromosomes is the culprit It´s something I can´t sugarcoat, it´s repulsive
We were homies, since children, I thought it But thought I was buggin´, though ´Cause we´d sit, chill and just talk chicks Now how can we be friends still after all this Unless, I can convince you to repent Ask God to forgive you for your sins And begin healin´ your conscience And rid you of this sick illness that causes it Part of me wishes you´d kept this shit, still in the closet I´m white but I´m gettin´ mixed feelings like Logic Yeah, I´m pissed off a little, this is a choice We were supposed to be boys You´re actin´ like this ain´t optional What if I said you was weak? ´Cause you don´t got the strength to conquer some biological monster that´s part of you
That´s responsible for them homosexual thoughts If you don´t want a lecture, part Like a sofa section or long as you Make your decision and stand by it, but I can´t be beside it ´Cause for me, that´d be next to impossible Or you learn to control your urges You say, "It´s like pullin´ teeth and morals are oral surgeons" But how would you even know anyways if you´re a virgin Why can´t you be a normal person? What if I tried steerin´ you towards a girlfriend? Wouldn´t work, would it? You seem pretty surefooted I´m sure good at judgin´, but I have no right I know goodbye seems cold, right?
Not even a flicker of hope like a strobe light As I leave and I swear I stayed up that whole night And no, I didn´t know you would go right home and go take your own life I ain´t mean for that shit to happen, I said I won´t cry I let the best friend that I´ve ever known die Alone, was gonna tell you the next day I´m so sorry, I´m fightin´ my own demons, I won´t lie They won´t leave me alone, eating at my soul, this whole time I´ve been tortured, imprisoned in my own mind A born again Christian but Lord if you´re listenin´ We might be headed for a collision ´Cause when I told my boy I couldn´t support his decision
I was tryna make it seem like a choice, when it isn´t Can´t be cured with a prayer to Saint Jude What If I told you my wish never came true? What if I´m a hypocrite who´s afraid to just face truth? Wait What if I told you I´m gay too?