[Fleurie] Insidious is blind inception What´s reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in Slept in
Broken legs, but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I´m trapped in And it´s lonely inside this mansion
[NF] Yo, my mind is a house with walls, covered in lyrics They´re all over the place, there´s songs in the mirrors Written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That´s where I write when I´m in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don´t wanna see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists ´til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that´s the room that I don´t wanna be in That picture ain´t blurry at all, I just don´t wanna see it And these walls ain´t blank, I just think I don´t wanna see ´em But why not? I´m in here, so I might as well read ´em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact, I think I´ma burn this room right now Somehow, this memory, for some reason, just won´t come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me ´til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you´ll always have a room in my mind But I´ma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
[Fleurie] Insidious is blind inception What´s reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in And slept in Broken legs, but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I´m trapped in And it´s lonely inside this mansion, inside this mansion
[NF] Yo, my mind is a house with walls, covered in pain See, my problem is, I don´t fix things, I just try to repaint Cover ´em up, like it never happened, say, "I wish I could change" Are you confused? Come upstairs and I´ll show you what I mean This room´s full of regrets, it just keeps getting fuller, it seems The moment I walk into it´s the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it´s hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around, one of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom One of the first things I wrote was, "I wish I woulda called" But I should just stop now, we ain´t got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain´t nothing, like it´s out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watchin´ these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I´m goin´, they´ll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you´ll always have a room in my mind The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?
[Fleurie] Insidious is blind inception What´s reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in And slept in Broken legs, but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I´m trapped in And it´s lonely inside this mansion, inside this mansion
[NF] So this part of my house, no one´s been in it for years I built a safe room and I don´t let no one in there ´Cause if I do, there´s a chance that they might disappear And not come back, and I admit, I am emotionally scared To let anyone inside, so I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up, but this doors not ´Cause I don´t want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I´ll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I´m barricaded inside, so stop watchin´
I´m not coming to the door, so stop knockin´, stop knockin´ I´m trapped here, God keeps saying I´m not locked in I chose this, I am lost in my own conscience I know that shuttin´ the world out ain´t solvin´ the problem But I didn´t build this house because I thought it would solve ´em I built it because I thought that it was safer in there But it´s not, I´m not the only thing that´s livin´ in here Fear came to my house years ago, I let him in Maybe that´s the problem, ´cause I´ve been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it´s obvious, he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I´m in the position, it´s either sit here, and let ´em win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can ´Cause in order to do that, I´d have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don´t know anymore