It just hasn´t felt the same in the same way it used to, no
I suppose that that´s just something I´ve just gotta get used to now
Close my eyes and do whatever I imagine that you do, but I

I´m not sure, I´m not sure

Because everybody´s happy and with everybody laughing
I can´t help feeling like I abandoned you
I wish I could´ve gone instead of you
It sounds a bit macabre because it´s true
´Cause there´s a certain pain in everything I do

Someone told me, "let the pain go,"
Almost punched him in his face, though
If I let go of the pain, I might cease to know your name
It´s been so damn long
I can picture your face, I´ve been so damn wrong
In so many ways
I´ve been holding on
That will never change, it´s all for you

Because everybody´s happy and with everybody laughing
I can´t help feeling like I abandoned you
I wish I could´ve gone instead of you
It sounds a bit macabre, because it´s true
´Cause there´s a certain pain in everything I do

But I don´t like to talk about it
Everyone tip-toes around it
Feels like they´re tip-toeing ´round you
All I ever really know is
All I ever really know is
It´s all for you, you, you, you