It´s taken two different therapists
To tell me what to do to help me wrestle with
The bar I set for love and what I do with it
I want it so bad but I´m bad at it
Used to love a Friday night in Malibu

Now I never go because I think of you
Never meant to ruin it but you always do
I can´t get away, get away from you

Oh, and somewhere
There´s a balance in self-care
And wanting someone to be there
Is it normal to be scared?

Cause I should hate you
Probably do, but I don´t want to
All I do is forgive you
Is it normal that I do?
Everyone I love is worried
All you´ve ever done is hurt me
And it hurts me to love you
Is it normal that I do?

I´ve gotten so good at recovery
Reading all the books and doing everything
Even give advice like I know anything
But I´m so afraid to heal that it´s breaking me

Oh, and somewhere
There´s a balance in self-care
And wanting someone to be there
Is it normal to be scared?

Cause I should hate you
Probably do, but I don´t want to
All I do is forgive you
Is it normal that I do?
Everyone I love is worried
All you´ve ever done is hurt me
And it hurts me to love you
Is it normal that I do?

(Nah-nah-nah, normal)
(Tell me I´m normal)
(I know I´m normal)
(So tell me I´m normal)

Is it normal to lie to all my friends every night?
Is it normal to try to tell myself I´m alright?
Is it normal to say that I still want you that way?
And is it normal to stay in case you come back some day?

I should hate you
Probably do, but I don´t want to
All I do is forgive you
Is it normal that I do?

Everyone I love is worried
All you´ve ever done is hurt me
And it hurts me to love you
Is it normal that I do?

(Nah-nah-nah, normal)
(Tell me I´m normal)
(I know I´m normal)
(So tell me I´m normal)
(Nah-nah-nah, normal)
(Tell me I´m normal)
(I know I´m normal)
(So tell me I´m normal)