Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they

Walkin´ past the homeless in a Rolex

Just got off the stage on the TODAY Show and I basically felt soulless
Years go by and I keep saying I´m gon´ use my phone less
But I should just be phone-less
Ignorance is bliss and so is bein´ underground
´Cause it was fun when we were known less
Sorry, that´s cliche, I know I´m so blessed
But Jason keeps on tellin´ me, "Say yes"
And truth be told, I know he knows best
But I don´t wanna do no press
I´ve seen enough of me on this lil´ screen
I´ve become so vain and insecure ´bout everything
I feel all this pressure to live up to what they tell me I´m gon´ be
So I isolate myself, you can´t help me, it´s on me
I´m hidin´ any sign of weakness from my guys

I don´t want ´em second-guessin´ with me
Nemo said to keep my foot on necks ´cause I can´t let ´em just forget me
But the brags in my raps are getting less and less convincing
So I´d rather just

Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they

I wrote that first verse in Denver back in September
It´s January now and I´m feelin´ like myself again
I got Angel back in here, I need his help again
I´m takin´ time away but wonderin´ what a healthy helping is
Fuck it, they gon´ check for me, I tell myself and tell my friends

Avoidin´ any talks about the elephant
Chalkin´ up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments
But deep down, I find myself wonderin´
If the people that write about are right about me
And I wonder if my exes are oversharin´ ´cause they know a lot about me
I´m a long way from Shelby County
I been through some local tension, heard talks of a healthy bounty
Sober and focused, I cannot walk down no deli alleys
I still got the fellas ´round me, I love ´em and tell ´em proudly
My mama needs help adjusting, my father need help accounting
I´m lookin´ out heaven´s window, I know that there´s hell around me and

Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they