What can I say?
I´m learning to lie
But I´m living to learn
What to lie about

I´m losing again
From holding too tight
But I´m living to lose
What I can do without

I´ve played a few games
Where no score could be fitting
But I´m learning when winning is
Just not worth the sport

And I´ve been so ashamed
That I´ve run like the wind
But I´m learning about giving up
And sparing the horse

When I´ve been cruel
I´ve taken up self hatred
Procrastinating pains

Of finally seeing myself

But when I looked on the truth
And it bloomed for all its patience
There was ugliness and shame
But there was
Something else
What can I say?
I´m learning to die
But I´m living to learn