La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la, la-la
La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la, la-la
That little grey area
Yo

It´s hard to talk about somethin´ that I don´t believe in
L-O-V-E, can you tell me what´s the meanin´? I been dreamin´
How the fuck was you that deceitful? I didn´t see it
Hard for me to paint a picture, you´ll just have to meet him
Gave my all to you, wanted to give more to you
Should´ve been honest with yourself, nobody was forcin´ you
I ain´t even mad that you chalk, I´m just mad at me
Should´ve known better, mommy taught me better strategies
Still it burns, guess it´s a blessing and a curse
Life goes on, this another lesson learned
Mind switched on, you can hear it in a verse, right?

B will never know how much it really hurts
Images so vivid, so clear, oh my, dear
You have no idea who I know here
Think fast, be on your A game
Silly for me to think we was on the same page
You really don´t know anybody these days
She stays for his sake, a sweet face
Mind spinnin´, the clock tickin´, my soul missin´
Did well to convince me that your soul different
Give someone an inch and they will take a mile
It might take a while
Now I see you´ve approached this in a faker style
This must be the apocalypse, feels like the world´s ending
Who am I? I´m a mess, more sinning, more spending
More down days tryna make it through the seventh
Can´t believe I almost got rid of my independence
Type of fuckery will have you look at yourself and start second guessin´

Now I´m on crud like shit will get messy if you ever get to testin´
But really I´m a sensitive soul and I´ll stress it
What happens when someone takes advantage of that?
Lost part of myself, and I can´t get her back

Oh, my love, I been waiting
For you to run back home, oh
Oh, my love, I been investigating
If you went and found new love, oh

How the fuck you get twang, Simz? You smarter than that
But you don´t see it when you´re in it, that´s the hardest of facts
I can´t relax, my heart racin´

Remember when I heard the news, I just couldn´t face it
If we ever talk again, it´s on a last name basis
I know where to place you
I´m just tryna understand it
I don´t wanna hear you
Guess you had to do what you had to do
But just know nobody rates you
Key word in all of this is you
I wonder what I did for me, I hardly remember me
What a waste of chemistry, energy and empathy
Wonder when you plan to let me know about her pregnancy
You have no integrity, emotion or respect for me
Clearly wasn´t meant to be
This all temporary
This the clearest I´ve seen it, was bound to end eventually

Still it hurts tremendously, can´t bear the intensity

Oh, my love, I been waiting
For you to run back home, oh
Oh, my love, I been investigating
If you went and found new love, oh

I kept quiet ´bout the situation
But now I´m sayin´ my piece, though
Nothing lasts forever
There´s me acting like I didn´t know
I can´t do relationships for Instagram
Posing like my life is perfect, really it´s the opposite
Lately I been down a lot
I talk to no one about it
Can´t even write about it, damn this writer´s block

Hittin´ me like never before, still I record
Been in the raw, smokin´ just to take my mind all off
Everything that I should´ve been mindful of
Everything that I´ve enjoyed in life, I´m a survivor of
Making sure to understand the small print ´fore I sign it off
You was meant to be in my Grammy speech, your entire loss
I´ll just keep it real, truth won´t be concealed
Please don´t listen to this and ask me if I´m hurtin´ or if I´m okay
Allow me to be human and be in my feels
Chill, I´m good, I got it
I never lost it
Or am I just lying to myself to skip the topic?

La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la, la-la

Oh, my love, I been waiting
For you to run back home, oh
Oh, my love, I been investigating
If you went and found new love, oh
Oh, my love, I been waiting
For you to run back home, oh
Oh, my love, I been investigating
If you went and found new love, oh

Your heart cries at night alone
Your heart cries at night alone