Let´s just be honest Jesus, I´m a mess
Can´t seem to fill this void of emptiness
My bills are paid but I´m still stressed
I need you, I need you

Trying to medicate and dull the pain
Can´t hush these voices in my brain
Singing songs to silent sounds of shame
I need you, I need you

But if I tell the truth I´m so afraid of truth
And I know it and you know it

I know I need to pray
But I don´t know how to say
I´m not ready, I´m not ready to change
I wanna trust in You
But if I told the truth
I´m not ready, I´m not ready to change

Stuck in between what was and what could be
I´m so afraid to lose the image they see
I don´t even know what´s happening to me

I need you, I need you

But when I face the facts my feelings aren´t facts
I know it, yes I know it

I know I need to pray
I don´t know how to say
I´m not ready, I´m not ready to change
I wanna trust in You
But if I told the truth
I´m not ready, I´m not ready to change

Sometimes I feel like I
Like I gotta hide
I just don´t get why You stay with me
Cause my faith and my trust are wavering, wavering

Maybe it´s all my pride
It´s hard to surrender, when I´ve been pretending
To have it together
But I feel like my world is falling apart
Just need a minute, just a second to catch up
I know I´m not finished
I just can´t seem to give up
Help me remember all of the plans we made
When we were both on the same page
On the same page

I know I need to pray
I don´t know how to say
I´m not ready, I´m not ready to change
I wanna trust in You
But if I told the truth
I´m not ready, I´m not ready to change