I’m trying but still I close my eyes
The dreaming, bringing his face to mine

(Lock the door)
The constant buzzing all through the night

The fighting rips me all up inside

(On the floor)
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray and wait
I cross out his name on the page

(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) I walk in the light?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?

The rise and fall of his chest on me
I’m trying but still it’s all I see
The violent current of energy
I hide it away and underneath

(Lock the door)

I shake, I promise everyday
To change
I cross out his name on the page

(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) I walk in the light?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?

Take this wildness away

I’m trying but still I close my eyes
The dreaming, bringing his face to mine

(Out the door)
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray to change
I cross out his name on the page

(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?

I just want him in my arms
I just want him in my arms