I never enjoyed the surprise birthday
So naturally I hate the opposite surprise
And you can imagine I´m hurting the worst way
Your family´s loss is Heaven´s gain, oh that´s right

But I, I keep falling down that hole
The one that I can´t control
You are gone, send a text, you don´t respond, so
Not tryna be selfish, no
But can you answer my heart from Heaven?
´Cause I got questions

I won´t sit here and call you selfish
But could you tell that you would leave us in Hell? (In Hell)
I can´t say you were anyone else´s
´Cause life is so cold, it´s only saying "oh, well"

Is this a joke or better question, then why?
You ain´t want us to know ´cause you had anti-pride

Also, too much on your mind
Addresses, numbers, times
Your obsession that nobody questioned
It feels like we´re all blind ´cause we didn´t read the sign
11:11, a new star in Heaven

Is this a joke or better question, then why?
You ain´t want us to know, you kept your plan airtight

(Was it your anti-pride?)
If you were upset, you would never let us see
Guess what? She´s hurt
But she would never let you know it (Let you know it)
Never show it, no matter what, she stays smiling

(One minute, I´m crying)
No, I´m not upset
You think that this shit is funny?
Laughing out loud, yeah, bet you´re rolling over (Rolling over)
Showing God that I´m ugly face cryin´