When I drive past a graveyard
I still hold my breath
I guess on some level
The thought of what´s next makes my stomach hurt
When I get like that

I don´t know where to go with it
So I just say something inappropriate
Like, "Must be nice to skip work"

If I act like I don´t care
It´s ´cause I care too much
If I act like I´m not scared
It´s ´cause I´m scared as fuck
If I make a joke that you don´t think is funny
About how you´ll get all of my money after I die
It´s ´cause if I don´t laugh, I´ll cry

When I kiss you goodbye at the airport
And I say a plane crash is cheaper than divorce, I can´t help it
No, I can´t help it
I wish I could stop all these cyclical thoughts
Like one day you´re here and the next day you´re not

I know without you would kill me if I ever felt it

If I act like I don´t care
It´s ´cause I care too much
If I act like I´m not scared
It´s ´cause I´m scared as fuck
If I make a joke that you don´t think is funny
About how you´ll get all of my money after I die
It´s ´cause if I don´t laugh, I´ll cry

When I drive past a graveyard
I still hold my breath
I guess on some level
The thought of what´s next makes my stomach hurt