i really don´t know what i´m doing here i really think i should´ve gone to bed tonight but... "just one drink and there´re some people to meet you
i think that you´ll like them i have to say we do and i promise in less than than an hour we will honestly go... now why don´t i just get you another while you just say hello... "
yeah just say hello...
so i´m clutching it tight another glass in my hand and my mouth and the smiles moving up as i stand up too close and too wide and the smiles are too bright and i breathe in too deep and my head´s getting light but the air is getting heavier and it´s closer
and i´m starting to sway and the hands all on my shoulders don´t have names and they won´t go away so here i go here i go again...
falling into strangers and it´s only just eleven and i´m staring like a child until someone slips me heaven and i take it on my knees just like a thousand times before and i get transfixed that fixed and i´m just looking at the floor just looking at the floor yeah i look at the floor...
and i´m starting to laugh like an animal in pain and i´ve got blood on my hands and i´ve got hands in my brain and the first short retch leaves me gasping for more and i stagger over screaming on my way to the floor and i´m back on my back with the lights and the lies in my eyes and the colour and the music´s too loud and my head´s all the wrong size so here i go here i go again...
yeah i laugh and i jump and i sing and i laugh
and i dance and i laugh and i laugh and i laugh and i can´t seem to think where this is who i am why i´m keeping this going keep pouring it out keep pouring it down keeping it going keep pouring it down and the way the rain comes down hard... that´s the way i feel inside...
i can´t take it anymore this it i´ve become this is it like i get when my life´s going numb i just keep moving my mouth
i just keep moving my feet i say i´m loving you to death like i´m losing my breath and all the smiles that i wear and all the games that i play and all the drinks that i mix and i drink until i´m sick and all the faces i make and all the shapes that i throw and alll the people i meet and all the words that i know makes me sick to the heart oh i feel so tired...
and the way the rain comes down hard... that´s how i feel inside...