Um, the first time I was heartbroken
I was fifteen
And he was two years older than me
And I thought he was the coolest guy in the world because he could drive

He absolutely ripped my heart out
And still to this day, I don´t know if it was love
And I don´t know if I´ve ever felt love
And I don´t think I will know until the day I die

The first time I ever lost somebody super close to me was my Aunt Patty
She got cancer when I was really young
She fought hard, but ended up passing
And I remember her final day, she was really skinny and sickly
Talkin´ ´bout how precious life was and how she didn´t wanna go
Really put everything in perspective for me
She was younger than I am now

Y´know, I remember the first time I got the news that I was gonna be a dad
While I was actually landing in Dallas for my great-grandmother´s funeral
And I remember landing and getting a text from Koa´s mom
Just being like, "Hey, call me immediately, like, I have to talk to you"
And, uh, she was like, "I´m pregnant, we´re- we´re gonna have a kid"
And the mixed emotions I can´t even begin to explain, like
Just losing one of the strongest members of our family
And, also, gaining a member of the family

I remember the first time I had to make a big move was when I was moving from Sydney to LA
With my older brother LAROI
And I remember, at first, I was just like, really, really angry with LAROI and mom
Just like, losing it, ´cause I was like, moving away from all of my friends, cousins, like all my relatives, and everything
Like, it hurt, you know
But I realize that if they didn´t move me out, I probably would´ve been a completely different person
And like I would´ve been raised completely differently and whatever
But yeah, that was my first time