Disciplinin´ my habits, went distant on my attachments I had to turn my presence to absence Stuck in a cage, questionin´ the hours and days Depressional phase, my tunnel vision startin´ to fade I started to marry my thoughts, already engaged Not knowing my next move had me going insane Depending on alcohol to get me over the pain Praying my habit don´t ever have me turn to cocaine I won´t allow this temporary pain to turn to a stain I wanna live but my joy for live is stuck in the grave God I need you more than ever, I was hoping you came So used to holdin´ shit in, it´s kinda hard to explain
Picasso the best way to put it Before you knew the meaning of it, you misunderstood it Far from perfect, did a lot of shit I knew I shouldn´t Duckin´ my demons but they comin´ like a movin´ bullet Shit, it´s crazy out here, it´s like I love it and I hate it out here Gotta be mentally stable out here, just to make it out here Never slippin´, everyday I´m aware If I ain´t got it, I´ll go get it, and I´ll make it appear Tough love, being assertive, that´s the way that I care When I´m distant and I ignore you, then to me you ain´t there
When I erase you that´s when you worry, replace yo ass in a hurry That´s the truth, not a dare, nigga do not compare
[Max YB] There´s pain in me, I want it washed away I gotta keep faith in me, them niggas want me dead I gotta stay strong, stay strong I´ve been fightin´ all my life, oh May God watch my soul
[Young M.A.] Only people that think that I fell off is people who wasn´t supportin´ before the fame and the fortune My fanbase was already a force and
I was sellin´ out shows before the radio sources Meanin´ the grind of independents what got me in it Not a co-sign or a mention and this is not fiction Now I´m feelin´ attention from muhfuckers that once was dick-lickin´, and pic-flickin´ friendship And this isn´t no damn fool I know the game so it´s cool And when you play the game, play it by the rules, uh Mama ain´t raise no coon, I know the difference between loved and used Life is just hugs and bruises, care and crew Fuck desire, my heart pump fire, ooh Don´t inhale my fumes, I´m toxic, caged in like zoos Boxed in like boxin´, in the studio locked in
Man you couldn´t walk a block in my shoes Not even my socks, shit Came from the bottom that´s why I fuck with the top shit I´m talkin´ ´bout that never, ever, ever in stock shit I don´t pop shit, I speak knowledge, just call me a prophet And if you pay attention then you payin´ homage Cheap jeans with paid pockets, this poundcake got these weight watchers weight watchin´, uh I ain´t stoppin´ like Hov said Sit in front of the Bentley, with the doors out like bow-legs I hate a bitch with a fat ass and no legs I love a bitch with some crack pussy and dope head Broke bread with niggas, all I got was a thank you
And you got some other niggas out here sayin´ they made you, ha The game tryin´ to erase you, got my foot on they necks You disrespect the tech I´ll give you a facial, uh Apologies to my exes, and no this ain´t my confessions Appreciate your time and investment, patience and effort Having ya´ll was part of a blessin´ Y´all all belong on the cover of Essence No hard feelings, no love lost No bad blood, your love is a bad drug But better to have love than no love I need a blunt, KorLeone, can you roll one? And smoke one?
[Max YB] There´s pain in me, I want it washed away I gotta keep faith in me, them niggas want me dead I gotta stay strong, stay strong I´ve been fightin´ all my life, oh May God watch my soul, ah
[ Max YB] Oh, all these battles I´ve been fighting Ooh, all these battles I´ve been fighting I just gotta keep on goin´ on, on and on, and on, ooh-oh