I been in that war, but I ain´t say it My dog just finished trial and lost the case Couple days before I was a pallbearer and buried Jay
I ain´t walk up on his casket when it´s open, I ain´t want that to be the last time I seen his face When I seen my tear fall, I ain´t cry in a while, but I seen blood And it´s feelin´ deep, we ain´t lose connect, so we ain´t talk, but that´s my thug I felt his soul when I was huggin´ her tight, when I gave his mama a hug I´m still mad, tryna rekindle our flame, but you know it´s still love
I´m tryin´, but it´s only so much that a nigga can take Inside, I´m dyin´, every day feel like my last, in the morning, I won´t be awake
With all my love, been tryna make this mountain move
Uh, I still be trying even though I know it´s impossible How could I be so foolish for believing in love? Know it´s limited moments I got with you and this time ain´t enough YB just lost federal trial, it got my head spinnin´ Grandma asked me, was I at peace? I told her, "It´s been a minute" They say I beat the streets, but I promise it don´t seem like I´m winning God keep a close eye on me, you know how I get when I´m healin´ Know how I get when I´m dealin´ Suicidal thoughts, I be trippin´ I been out of touch with my feelings Emotionally scarred, but I´m willin´ They say I´m weird ´cause I´m different
I still won´t change with these millions I cry of pain ´cause I feel it They ain´t say bad news, but I hear it
I´m tryin´, but it´s only so much that a nigga can take Inside, I´m dyin´, every day feel like my last, in the morning, I won´t be awake
Ayy, I be tryna move my feet, but my heart just got me stuck When I started to see that they cared, that´s when they showed me they don´t give a fuck When I love, my heart start beating, I can´t let you in easy Why should I be the one to stay when I know you gon´ leave me? Mortician wanted me to talk at Jay funeral
But I was tryna stay strong even though I was vulnerable I had 23 once before, but I lost him two times We wasn´t on good terms before he died, I wished I called his line The shit that we was fighting over, we could´ve got over it Had our differences since 2019, but nobody noticed it I still loved you like my brother, I hope you know it Embracin´ all my feelings like a poet I just seen the devil flash right ´cross my eyes In my dreams, I seen a shovel bury me alive All your friends and, yeah, all my brothers died Baby, I need you here, just right here by my side Feel like bad luck is me, feel like I´m cursed I know everybody go through shit, but I go through the worst
Hurt people hurt people, I lied when I said I believe him I wouldn´t be surprised if out of the blue, that my heart´ll stop beating I showed ´em my weakness
I´m tryin´, but it´s only so much that a nigga can take Inside, I´m dyin´, every day feel like my last, in the morning, I won´t be awake
You know, like, real niggas go through shit, you feel me? I won´t try to hide it ´cause I know this shit be real, you feel what I´m sayin´? I can´t hide this shit, this shit just be me, that´s who I am, like I feel this shit, you know what I´m sayin´?
Like, every step of the way, it´s always somethin´ else Every time I open my eyes, it´s somethin´, I close ´em, it´s somethin´ else, I wake up, open again, it´s somethin´ else That´s just my life